Sunday, February 13, 2011


All night long I was surrounded by moaning. Nina moaned. Teddy moaned. Sosie moaned. All three kids moaned in their sleep.

I just lay on the couch, sleeping beside the girls who were cuddled on the mattress and listened to the terrifying orchestra consuming my condo all night long.

Nina has been moaning pretty much all night long for the past 4 days. Yvonne described it best when she said it was like a suffering moan. Yvonne is right! Nina's breathing and moaning have changed qualitatively. The change is palatable and it's heart wrenching to hear!!!

Teddy and Sosie moaned, practically in unison. First, Sosie would moan and literally a few seconds later I'd hear Teddy's moan trickle its way down the stairs until it settled into my soul. Teddy moaned for his sister. He fell asleep in my arms sobbing over his pain for her. Sosie moaned for both her little cousins. She fell asleep to hearing Teddy's cries and wiping away the tears that welled in her own crystal blue eyes.

Nina moaned from suffering.

Teddy and Sosie moaned from the injustice of her suffering.

I listened in silence.


  1. My heart is heavy for you Rosy, but you and your family are always in my thoughts and prayers and are loved my so many. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help support you or your family.

  2. I read daily, and today as I sat in church singing "God is the beginning and the end" I began to cry for you and for nina. He is the beginning and the end. And what feels like an end here is nothing but a beginning there. I cried for your pain as you described it standing by the ocean. I can only hope God can reach in there and grant some peace to you and to Nina.

  3. Oh Rosy... how my heart aches for all of you! I am so sorry. This is something so much bigger than any of us. Sweet one should ever have to carry such pain. I wish there was something I could do to change the tides of what is happening.

    My love and prayers always!

  4. I'm so sorry, Rosy. I pray for Nina daily.

    The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
    and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
    Psalm 34:18